Happy Monday! How was your weekend? It was a good one over here with Mother’s Day and all – Wita kept screaming “HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MOM!” to me in public spaces all day. (I appreciate her holiday fervor, even though my birthday is in November.) It was a gorgeous day, and my husband even managed to snap this Mother’s Day photo. All three of us looking in the direction of the camera and smiling? Now, that’s a miracle.
On Saturday, I did a little reading, and happened upon the most eye-opening passage in Broken Open. I thought about how I would draw from it in a blog post, but quickly realized it was too perfect to paraphrase. Have a look.
“One of the greatest enigmas of human behavior is the way we isolate ourselves from each other. In our misguided perception of separation, we assume that others are not sharing a similar experience of life. We imagine that we are unique in our eccentricities or failures or longings. And so we try to appear as happy and consistent as we think others are, and we feel shame when we stumble and fall. When difficulties come our way, we don’t readily seek out help and compassion because we think others might not understand, or would judge us harshly or take advantage of our weakness. And so we hide out, and we miss out.
Just like you, I can be a jerk sometimes. I do unkind, cowardly things, harbor unmerciful thoughts, and mope around when I should be doing something constructive. Just like you, I wonder if life has meaning; I worry and fret over things I can’t control; and I often feel overcome with a longing for something that I cannot even name. For all of my strengths and gifts, I am also a vulnerable and insecure person, in need of connection and reassurance. This is the secret I try to keep from you, and you from me, and in doing so we do each other a grave disservice. Rumi tells us that moment we accept what troubles we’ve been given, the door will open. Sounds easy, sounds attractive, but it is difficult, and most of us pound on the door to freedom and happiness with every manipulative ploy save the one that actually works. If you’re interested in opening the door to the heavens, start with the door to your own secret self. See what happens when you offer to another a glimpse of who you really are. Start slowly. Without getting dramatic, share the simple dignity of yourself in each moment—your triumphs and your failures, your satisfaction and your sorrow. Face your embarrassment at being human, and you’ll uncover a deep well of passion and compassion. It’s a great power, your Open Secret. When your heart is undefended, you make it safe for whomever you meet to put down his burden of hiding, and then you both can walk through the open door.” – Elizabeth Lesser
I can confidently say that opening up about my struggles in this space has been one of the best things I’ve ever done. I feel a deeper connection to so many of you, and honestly, I feel more connected to this blog than I have for years. It’s simple, really. When it comes down to it, we all have different circumstances, but the resulting core feelings from our circumstances are shared by all of us. We’ve all felt fear and hopelessness and longing at some point. It’s what makes us human. It is our core connection.
If you sometimes feel devoid of real, true connections, would it be so scary to let your guard down a little bit in your day-to-day interactions? Just a little bit – I’m not saying you need to break down in hysterics to a coworker over an unfulfilled longing or anything (WHHYYYYYYYY GOD WHHYYYYYYY), but like Elizabeth said, just share the simple dignity of yourself in the moment. It would be an interesting little experiment…take off your “everything’s perfectly fine!” mask for a bit and open your heart to someone. I suspect you’ll find others are feeling the same way, and watch what happens. Maybe you can try it this week, and if face-to-face seems too daunting at first, you can start here. You know I’ll be rooting you on.
KristiMay 12, 2014 at 7:10 am
I love this. So true. Thank you for continuing to share!
KristiMay 12, 2014 at 8:27 am
Another Kristi agrees… :-) I am loving these Mindful Mondays posts!
RuthMay 12, 2014 at 7:16 am
Have you read The Untethered Soul? I think you would love it! Thanks for sharing this, loving your Mindful Mondays :)
whoorlMay 12, 2014 at 7:19 am
I have read The Untethered Soul about, ummmm…4 times. :) It’s my all-time favorite book. (So much so, that I mentioned it on my About page! https://whoorl.com/about)
Glad to know you love it too. IT’S SO GOOD.
RuthMay 12, 2014 at 7:22 am
YES! So glad. I’ve been reading your blog for years, but as a single childless person I could never totally connect — until now. Your recent journey mirrors the one I went on four years ago when I was 22! I am in awe and admiration of how quickly you’ve processed it all and written about it — amazing!
whoorlMay 12, 2014 at 7:29 am
Oh, you don’t even know how much that comment means to me! It just proves that opening up does create connections. Thank you, Ruth!
(Also, sometimes I feel like an Untethered Soul disciple. I mention that book to anyone on my path – friends, strangers, the grocery check out lady….ha!)
natalieMay 12, 2014 at 7:41 am
Sarah, I look forward to Mindful Mondays. Undefended hearts always draw me in and encourage me in my journey in that direction. So, thank you for sharing yours.
I have started to share my secret more recently via Hello Day. The gifts that are resulting amaze me, although they shouldn’t. Revived friendships, vulnerable conversations, treasured encouragement, and on and on. One of my biggest “secrets” is my rough childhood and relationship with my mom. We have come a long way and I shared our story just yesterday on Hello Day – I am so grateful my mom was willing to let me share our journey.
Cheers to open hearts. Peace and love to you.
whoorlMay 12, 2014 at 7:48 am
Girl, we should grab coffee/tea sometime. Our conversations shouldn’t be limited to this blog and the Trader Joe’s parking lot! ;)
natalieMay 12, 2014 at 12:59 pm
I agree! I’ll email you.
Amanda BrownMay 12, 2014 at 12:09 pm
I love this and have tried to live my life this way…open and a little messy. It tears walls down so quickly when we peek out from behind our masks and I too have found that’s when real, honest and deep connections with others are made.
kristiinaMay 12, 2014 at 4:15 pm
I, too, feel a greater connection to you now..I make it a point to stop by on Mondays because you write these posts so well. They just speak to me.
I couldn’t agree more that when we show our vulnerability, we open ourselves up to more. I’m kind of self deprecating by nature–I think I figured out at a young age that people let their guards down when they realized I wasn’t this perfect person/mom, etc.
I find it harder to do on my blog. I’ve tried off and on for a few years to write with transparency and openly, but it’s so much harder than I thought. It’s much easier to just talk about an awesome lip gloss, or how I changed out my bedding ;)
Keep it up, Sarah! I’m always coming back for more…(and I’ve had Untethered Soul in my Amazon cart for two weeks…I think these comments just tipped me to checkout. I can’t wait!)
StaceyMay 13, 2014 at 8:44 am
Such a gorgeous shot of you and your kiddos, and I love your tribal dress/top!