Hi there

So I’m not sure how to jump into this post, but here goes. As some of you know, 2013 has been a really challenging year for me. However, in true Whoorl fashion, I always expected to write about my struggles after the fact. You know, the way I like to do it. Solutions to problems! Positive outlooks! Well, it’s taking a lot longer than I expected.

On the bright side, I made it 38 years before dealing with a 1-2-3 punch of insomnia, anxiety and resulting depression. Flip side? Man, things have been bleak around here. I’m certainly not feeling like myself and composing blog posts about concealer is not on my to-do list. In fact, I have no to-do lists. (See? I told you I’m not myself.)

I am so thankful to have a loving, supportive family and healthcare professionals that are my advocates and helping me through these unchartered waters. Although some days feel incredibly hopeless, I know brighter days are in my future. (They have to be, right?)

One of my very favorite quotes by Coach John Wooden seems to be apropos at the moment.

“When you improve a little each day, eventually big things occur…not tomorrow, not the next day, but eventually a big gain is made. Don’t look for the big, quick improvement. Seek the small improvement one day at a time. That’s the only way it happens–and when it happens it lasts.”

Perhaps you are going through something too. If so, please know that you are not alone, and that I am sending love and light your way. Big time.

  • Zizi

    September 27, 2013 at 4:56 pm

    Sending loads of love to you

  • Cassandre

    September 27, 2013 at 5:03 pm

    Sending much love your way. Never stop asking for and getting help. I will pray for you.

  • Amanda Jayne

    September 27, 2013 at 5:06 pm

    For me, fall of 2011-spring of 2012 was especially horrid. It was the worst season of my life so far. Then we moved, my husband got a new job, and we started to pull ourselves out of a pit of debt and depression. Finally, two years after the beginning of that terrible time, I am finally starting to feel like my normal self again. Hang in there-I’m so glad you have help and support. It gets much better.

  • Meredith

    September 27, 2013 at 5:20 pm

    Thank you so much for this. I am experiencing severe anxiety this year and although it is great for weight loss, I am struggling with the 1-2-3 punch as well. May this year end better than it started. All my best.

  • Cori

    September 27, 2013 at 5:36 pm

    Sending hugs, well wishes and my sincere hope that you are feeling better soon!

  • Holly

    September 27, 2013 at 6:28 pm

    Sending love and prayers your way. Wish this stuff had a quick fix :(

  • Janet

    September 27, 2013 at 7:10 pm

    Sarah, I’m so sorry this year has been so tough. I really like that quote and hope it comes true for you. Sending hugs back to you. xoxo

  • Kari

    September 28, 2013 at 7:51 am

    Your quote is right on point, I am certain things will prove for you. I love reading your blog!

  • Julie

    September 28, 2013 at 9:38 am

    Sarah – so sorry that this year has been so rough for you. Thanks for sharing so publicly, you know that you have a cheering section whenever you need it.

  • Julie

    September 28, 2013 at 12:41 pm

    Thank you for sharing. I have had a similarly difficult year and seem to have forgotten what being really relaxed and not anxious/depressed feels like. I too am working through it and trying not to rush it, because that clearly doesn’t work. I feel we all connect more when we in fact share our vulnerabilities; at least I know I do. My very best to you! (And family is the best. I am a single mom and just moved home to be closer to mine. Whew! That has helped for sure.)

  • Beth B. TechMama

    September 28, 2013 at 12:50 pm

    Hugs to you for being brave, getting help and taking one day at a time.

  • jane ellison

    September 28, 2013 at 4:29 pm

    39 the insomnia started for me, awake from 3-5 am every night, 4 teenage kids, one actinng out. Than depression.
    Hormones, pre-menopause, I was told.
    The medications do help but some side effects (afternoon exhaustion for me) everyone is different.
    54, thru menopause, moods and insomnia have stablized.
    Hang in there, you are not alone!

  • chrissy

    September 28, 2013 at 7:57 pm

    Hang in there!!!!!

  • Sizzle

    September 29, 2013 at 11:02 am

    Sending love & light to you, sweet friend. Xo

  • Tiera

    September 29, 2013 at 7:58 pm

    “Depression, anxiety and panic attacks are not a sign of weakness. They are the result of remaining strong for too long.”

    Be well, take care of yourself.