Last week, I got some disappointing news. The latest Lyme test results came back showing the worst numbers yet – this after plowing through the past few months on three simultaneous high-powered antibiotics. I can’t even begin to tell you how this news made me feel. Disappointed, angry, fearful, sad, but most of all, hopeless.
I’ve physically felt crummy this entire week. And why shouldn’t I? We’ve talked about this before – the way our thoughts shape our reality…how our fears and anger and resentment can physically make us feel worse. These are the times when we truly must be willing to look at the bigger picture – to realize that God has our back, and our job is to enjoy the moments we have right this very minute. To be willing to see all of the wonderful right in front of our eyes, even during struggle. That is the practice, you guys. To be willing. To accept the gifts and signs that the universe puts in front of us every minute of the day.
Yesterday, I spoke at a luncheon about the business of blogging and speaking your truth. The weekend leading up to it wasn’t super great – like I said, I was tired and defeated and in pain. I woke up yesterday morning and asked myself how I was going to get up in front of a roomful of women with grace and enthusiasm. I was in the midst of a giant pity party in my bed when D walked in with a package. It was in Saturday’s mail, and when I opened it, everything changed in the moment.
It was a necklace custom-made by Melissa de la Fuente that I had ordered a few weeks prior. A gold triangle with three dots representing the intersection of the mind, body, and spirit, and three arrows (representing my husband and kids) pointing upward to remind me to never give up and forge forward with joy, gratitude, and the willingness to see all the good being offered up to me. It couldn’t have arrived at a more perfect time.
I proudly wore the necklace yesterday during my talk, and I’d like to think I did it with the grace and enthusiasm I had hoped to convey to everyone in the room. Although I’m not sure “graceful” would be the adjective used to describe the photo I chose to use during my introduction.
When speaking to a roomful of people, some might introduce themselves with a professional headshot. I, however, chose a selfie from the morning I woke up with bed head reminiscent of the flying nun. I woke up with that hairstyle, people. TALK ABOUT AN AWESOME MIRACLE.
It was a wonderful day spent with old and new friends, and I enjoyed every minute of it. So I ask you – would you be willing to see the good in today and tomorrow and the next? Because it’s right there waiting for you.